Friday, March 20, 2009

I Hope...

I hope that you all know how much I appreciate your kind words and comments. Your support is appreciated more than you know.

I hope that you understand that me wishing the impossible wish that my daughter didn't have Ds doesn't mean I don't adore her as she is. I am a very logical person. I don't obsess about this topic, but when I feel it, I allow myself the luxury of feeling it all the way through. And then? I get over it. Until next time. And yes, I agree that those days are much fewer and farther between as time passes.

I hope that you stick around and see for yourself that I am very proud of her. Playette rocks. Trust me on that. I enjoy her immensely.

I hope that one day I can be a good enough writer so that I can convey my thoughts clearly and succinctly and not be misunderstood. That's a gift that I'm not sure I have yet, but I'll continue to work on it.

I hope that the world listens to us and accepts our kids for who they are, without limits and labels. In the midst of all of our words is that desire. We want the best for our kids, regardless of the number of chromosomes they possess.

I think that's something on which we all can agree.

8 comments:

Mommy to those Special Ks said...

I think you did a great job conveying your thoughts, and you didn't say anything that a LARGE majority of us have not thought before you... like I said in my last post, I think you're doing a WONDERFUL job with Malea. I would never doubt your love and devotion to her :). I hope no one is giving you a hard time!

Peaches323 said...

Amen Sista Smith-Smith....

Wendy P said...

Amen!

badmama said...

My oldest and dearest friend just had a beautiful baby girl with T21. While my child has challenges, they are different that what her little one is going to have. It is because people like you write, imperfectly or not, that I feel at least a little more equipped to support my friend. Thank you.

Michelle said...

I think you're a great writer - and a wonderful mom!!

Jennifer Horner said...

Hi Crystal, I have felt the exact same way that you have. I would take Vivian's Ds away if I could too. If only so that she won't feel ANY bad feelings associated with it. That's really the only thing that I would take away. Selfishly I am loving having her a baby for a longer time. I had a little tear when I saw the videos of Malia walking, she is doing so great! Vivian is coming up on 10 months, this year has gone by so fast. I have not written in her baby book yet, lazy mama. I better get on it. We have an online picture book for her:http://gallery.mac.com/wesman#100094&bgcolor=black&view=grid
I love following your blog to see what might be in store for Viv.
Jen Horner

Sonia said...

*hugs* You are a terrific writer! What's great about your writing is that you share your thoughts at that moment, and us "commenters" relay ours for that moment too!

Most of us here are momma's with "special" babies. We're all different and feel different. But best of all...we will support each other any way we can!

Tricia said...

I heard you loud and clear!